Disjointed Intelligence

I don’t know of a single soul who doesn’t want to be loved for who they truly are. Yet there are people walking around everywhere who are pretending to be something they’re not, convincing themselves and those around them to believe a fairy tale. They paint a picture and expect it to last through the tests we are faced with. Unlike their body and soul this guise can not withstand the turbulent storms of life.

So, why? Why the facade? Why the misrepresentation? Why the self deception? 

I know people who actually take comfort in the fairy tale world they’ve created around themselves. They don’t care to stray from it, and reject those who refuse to play along. For me, this is one of the most insulting forms of dishonesty. It’s a learned behaviour and sometimes it’s passed on for generations. The best and worst are those who actually believe the lies they tell. There are those who create illusions for their own gain whether it be personal or monetary. In the end is it worth it? Is it worth tossing a valuable soul into a sea of deceit and ignorance?

Sometimes it’s hard to face the truth. There are times when I’d much rather be anyone but myself, but the fact of the matter is: I can’t. Famous but true, the saying goes, “Wherever you go, there you are.” You can’t escape yourself, no matter how hard you try.

People change, and I’m not saying they won’t. I’m a very different person from who I was even just five years ago. Incorporating the lessons you’ve learned, the people you meet, and the knowledge you’ve gained into who you are and how you represent yourself shows strength and integrity. I once heard someone say that they didn’t regret making mistakes because if they hadn’t made them, they wouldn’t have learned how to make things right. It’s a difficult struggle that’s for sure, but worth it I think.

To be truly loved for who you are, you have to represent yourself honestly. You have to love yourself too. So, the challenge for me is to constantly strive to be myself while continuing on a path of progress, learning, hardship and change.

These are just my thoughts for the morning, and maybe it’s turned into a bit of a rant. If it has I apologize, but this is me, it’s who I am and I’m sharing it with you.