Archive for November 23rd, 2008

Learning to love little ol’ me.

November 23rd, 2008

I haven’t always struggled with loving myself for who I am. I haven’t always struggled to be happy. I am blessed in many ways, but somehow along the way, I’ve forgotten the value of me.

As the holidays come, and life goes on, I find myself evaluating just who and where I am. There are times in my life when I’ve discounted my worth, lost faith in myself, and believed the people who said that I just wasn’t good enough. I resolve to make a conscious effort to banish these thoughts and beliefs from my mind. I know… I KNOW that none of them are true or real.

I’m learning and remembering that I’m able to acheive peace and happiness through the power of my own thoughts- my own beautiful mind. I know that I can do the things that I desire to do, and I will.

In the past I’ve admired people who boldly declared their intentions and goals for the whole world to hear. I was afraid that if I did, I’d be placing my failures on display if I didn’t succeed. I never considered my goals to be worthy of declaration. In a way, I was paving the path to my own failure because doubt clouded my ability and determination to succeed. As I sit and think today, I’m not afraid at all. I consider it a blessing and a wonderful opportunity to share myself right here, to put into words my aspirations for life and to record my thoughts along the way.

So, as a tribute to myself and the life I am building, here’s my list:

  • I will be a Doctor of Psychology
  • I will have a successful writing career
  • I will be financially secure
  • I will have a loving family- a spouse and children of my own
  • I will have a home of my own where visitors are welcome, comfortable, and loved
  • I will recognize each step of my journey for what it is worth
  • I will appreciate those I come into contact with
  • I will appreciate and love myself
  • I will be joyful

I’m worthy of it all. Loving me. Yes, now I consider myself edified on the subject!